Today i've decided to trust you , and leave everything that once happened behind me .
I've been thinking bout the ernest incident , and slowly i realise , i've been acting like a kid .
No matter how much i get jealous , no matter how much it pains me to know that you have been with guys ,
i still know that , no matter how much i stop you from meeting your guy friends , i still can't bring myself to reality that you still could do things behind my back without me knowing . i dont know about that . i dont know whether did you do anything behind my back . Maybe it's really time for me to grow up . Maybe its time i should know this is life . maybe i should know that i'm not supposed to control you , and maybe i should start being someone you would really love . i know i can't do this , i can't allow you to go out with guys , i get jealous too easily . you don't understand me at all . i hate the fact that you can't understand me .
and i hate that i just can't live without you .nonetheless im going to try my very best . even if i suffer , even if u really think that i allow you to go out with them . i'll just suffer alone , and i'll just tell myself nothing will happen between you and them . that's all i can do . i just want you by my side ...
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